Lost my Muse

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Definition:
muse
a.
A guiding spirit.
b. A source of inspiration.




I lost my muse to write.
I pick up a pen
Open the notebook
and
then
Blank!
Nothing.
Nothing.
Ideas there but the words and thought just don't flow....
Thoughts sound stupid
Words seem simple
Ideas seem pointless
Like what's the point of writing.
I want to make a difference.
I want to change the world
They way people think.
People are so closed minded that they miss out on friendships and all!
I want to matter
leave a legacy
Leave a memory
So that at my funeral people will have so much to say
I listen to crazy music.
You see me and wouldn't think that I love Travis Porter!
ANd then later Vivian Green
And actually I met a guy who loved the same songs as me....
But that didn't mean nothing...
I lost my muse to write.
I don't write articles...
I hardly write blogs...
But my mind goes 100 mph
I want to learn how to put my feelings down on paper so others can understand
I want to make a difference.
I want to use my creativity
I want
I want
I want
I want to get my muse back...


Comments

  1. Bianca NycoleDecember 7, 2009 at 11:18 AM

    aahhhh and yet again you speak the feelings of my heart...in soo many words. Though I still write my thoughts that don't seem to matter, I don't get that same feeling of inspiration as often..well really not at all. All the more reason why I love you!

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