Post Grad Life

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I stay up past 2 a.m.
That's nothing new for me
However, I have found myself getting sick lately
And that is new for me
I want a change
A change in friends
A change in location
A change in everything
I am tired of living this life
I remember when I used to be so happy

Photo from Freshman year of college
Happy to get up
Smiling all the time
Now when I smile I look in the mirror and want to frown
Where did I go?
Where did she go?
I was so happy go lucky...
I was so full of youth and happiness
Or was I?
I remember telling myself that it was just a front
That inside I was miserable and couldn't stand the thought of life
But I realize now that back then it wasn't that bad.

I am praying that the Lord bless my life with GOOD friends and not just any people
Because when you have a good friend by your side, everything is alright
I am praying that the Lord bless me new positive adventures that come my way for excitement.
I just hope I see it and realize it
People are in my life now and for what reason?
I ask myself then I say don't worry about it
And just go with the flow
I ask for all of the above.
My post grad life is exactly where I said it will be
If only I knew to speak things into existence and actually believe
My life would be much better.
Tomorrow, thinking more positive a new me
A brighter day
A better tomorrow!

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