My Love Pieces

My crush that drives me crazy. That drives my mind at 100 mph That puts my thoughts on a rollercoaster. That keeps my heart skipping a beat. Keeps my fingers dripping and my stomach doing cartwheels. keeps my feet floating on clouds. My heart pumping loud.

I'm just really scared to like you right now. I have given myself so many times before that it is so hard for me to fall. Yeah I can be next to you and talk your head off til the birds sing, but yet in still I'm scared. I want to breeze across your skin and and let my fingers grace your body whenever we lie next to each other, I want to feel the butterflies in my stomach every time I'm with you and everytime you cross my mind. I want to I really do. but I'm scared. I'm scared of being hurt like the last one. I'm scared of being let down or pushed to the side. I am really scared of just being alone in the end. The late night chats, time well spent and so much more to come. I want to cry tears of happiness when I'm with you and even when I'm not, not tears of regret and of broken heart. I want to look at you and see the man I think you are and what you show me but I'm scared it is not true. I'm scared it is not really you. I want you to think of me...

Listening to my slow jams back to back Where is the key to my heart. Humph.... Let's see where could it be? Shoot....I don't even know I think I might have let him have it too soon. He was too irresponsible and lost it He didn't take care of it neither did he cherish it Now it's lost.... Flipping between Tamia and Heather Headley Literally wondering: Why? Why be so lonely at 22? Wondering when will I fall in love Thanks. Amerie. Who askes why don't we? How can we if I don't have a he? If I don't have him? Being in love Gazing at the stars Walking on cloud nine like Tamia When I would be with him. Taking it all the way back to day one Thoughts of being a lucky charm, being on his arm Knowing that I will be there for him Like my grandmoms girdle. Looking good as always Stay in the mirror Because I will keep myself up just as long as he does too I want to run Run into his arms because aint no harm Coming my way. Dying in his arms Bringing me back to life when ...

[Ten] Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People 10. I wish that you would go back to the old you. You are really working my nerves and I feel like you are changing for the worst. You are losing your true identity. 9. I really like you and I hope that one day we will be like we used to be: silly and goofy together and happy. When I am with you, I am so comfortable you said it yourself. I hope you feel the same way to. I'll be back soon and all yours, hopefully. 8. You my friend but you can’t hold water worth nothing. It makes me hesitate to share my business with you-I hope you don’t tell my business like that. 7. You should really work out more and watch what you eat because you are getting fat and I’m really scared for your health because you are so young. 6. I knew I never should have given you a chance. True I judged a book by it's cover and never expected to fall for you like I did but it was all a waste. You are not what I expected and now that you showed me the ot...

Listening to my old CD Amerie, brings back thoughts of being in love, or when I thought I was in love. "I just died" was my song and I always wanted to feel that way. I thought a guy did that before but I can't remember who. But it is sad to say, that I have recently felt that way and it was for a guy who in my opinion caught me off guard, knocked me off my feet and made me melt all in one. I honestly really never expected to feel that way! Dang! Why? I ask myself over and over again. I can't like him and I hate every time I think about it him. It just makes me mad. He is the total opposite of everything I stand for. He lives everyday as chillin and that's it. No job, no car, no career thoughts or maybe he do just one I don't really care for. Hanging out all night, every weekend, somebody I don't want. But then it was the inside person. That person was who he showed me and I was at first glad that I was able to that person. As Beyonce would say, he intrig...

1. I hate when I ask people to do something for me in a text message, they reply back with I'm taking a test. Okay take the test and do what I asked after you get done! And if you are taking a test is it that important for you to stop thinking, just to waste some extra thought process to text me, "I'm taking a test." I really don't care. 2. I hate my sheets on my bed. Matter of fact I hate my dorm bed. It is so small! I am scared I will roll off, seriously! But I should have gotten the 300 thread count sheets instead of 100 % cotton! Geez! 3. I wanted to and still kind of want to marry a pro athlete on the low. They keep their bodies in such great shape!!! 4. I always wonder when I call people-friends and they don't answer for whatever reason it may be, I always think the worst.I don't know why but I do. 5. I will always wonder if I will meet Mr. Right and if I have already met him. I always wonder what it feeled like. Guess I will have to wait and see 6. ...

Thanks to Bianca I have started my blogging process. I am really excited and don't really know where to start but I do know that I am on the prowl so watch out blog folks I have a lot more to come. I believe this will in turn become my diary.