Scared
I'm just really scared to like you right now. I have given myself so many times before that it is so hard for me to fall. Yeah I can be next to you and talk your head off til the birds sing, but yet in still I'm scared. I want to breeze across your skin and and let my fingers grace your body whenever we lie next to each other, I want to feel the butterflies in my stomach every time I'm with you and everytime you cross my mind. I want to I really do. but I'm scared. I'm scared of being hurt like the last one. I'm scared of being let down or pushed to the side. I am really scared of just being alone in the end. The late night chats, time well spent and so much more to come. I want to cry tears of happiness when I'm with you and even when I'm not, not tears of regret and of broken heart. I want to look at you and see the man I think you are and what you show me but I'm scared it is not true. I'm scared it is not really you. I want you to think of me