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Cursed

I never thought I would find a song to perfectly describe how I feel about him. And then today, when I was sitting at my desk I said, Self? My self said What's up girl? I feel like listening to Vivian Green Vivian Green in my opinion is like the best R&B singer when it comes down to emotion, pain and love and happiness. She doesn't sugar coat it. She is very mature in her music and I love that she didn't try to keep up with current trends just to stay on the charts and be a sell out. Her music is pure and soul refreshing and not depressing. Her lyrics are heartening, soothing and comforting. Her songs are situational and very easy to relate too. Vivian Green is the perfect artist for background music of a girls night, were all the girls would be liquored up and then it turns into a Karaoke night filled with memories and empowerment. I love Vivian Green When I came across this song, I almost (almost) came to tears, because it describes exactly how I feel about him. It&

Summertime Blues

Man today (da dunnana da dunt) I got the summertime blues.... ( da dunnana da dunt ) The sun is out ( da dunnana da dunt ) The bees are too ( da dunnana da dunt ) I feel like screaming ( da dunnana da dunt ) To the top of my lungs ( da dunnana da dunt ) Thinking bout all the things going through my head Makes me want to stomp and punt I got the bluezzzzzz The Summertime Blues Cuz my shirt is blue

Mani anyone?????

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LOL at Lindsay Lohan.... still my Bit doe!!!! This is funny because, she knew exactly what her nails said and when she was getting them done and when her court date was... I mean honestly, her PR rep and lawyer, really aren't for her best interest. Everyone knows, that the judicial system don't play, well at least the minority population does... So I guess she thought she could get away with her crimes. Oh well... Still a bold move and makes me love her even more... call me crazy . I say serve the time, make new friends- not lovers, and come out being a bad chick!!!! I know she will.... Uhhh..... love her nails!!!!!!!!!!!!

Concrete jungle

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Im so NEW YORK BOUND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hell....i might not leave

Null dedicated to the month of July

Feeling empty inside. It's like I don't know what to feel. I am dedicating this entry to the 2 people who have hurt me the most over the past weeks: Mike & Mic Friendship and relationships. If you knew in the future that one decision would change your life or another person's life forever, would you stop and double think on it's worth? Your brief and subtle moments of pure bliss and happiness, is it worth it? I like to think that I was put back into her life so she could me him. Just call me Cupid I would like to know if it is meant to be between them, why did it hurt me so bad? Why do I feel worthless? And alone? Why has it thrown my life upside down and around? Every night I ask God, what is the lesson behind this emotional hurt because I don't see anything coming from it. Him? Mike? I could care 2 fcuks about him "Typical Nigha." As I always thought and thus was proven Her? Mic? Yea that hurt. See ... I. Deniscia... Value a friendship- old or new. I

Life

It is sooo crazy how I was just asking God, why am I still on Earth? Why am I still living? What is my purpose? When it seems like only bad things seem to come my way, in my opinion. But in actuality, my life is not bad. Yes, I may have downfalls, yes it may seem like I am down and out and the world is out to get me, but in truth God is only placing hurdles in my way for me to jump over to reach the finish line. It is my race, and it is up to me what place I will finish in and I'm looking at first. I need to stop thinking that my life is horrid and stop questing why He is putting bad things and people in my life. If he had not put me through those situations and placed those people in my life, I wouldn't know how to appreciate the better people to come and hold a permanent place in my heart. "People come in and out your life but friends leave footsteps on your heart." I need to make better judgments in situations that come in my life. I gotta do better, Work harder

A Dream Believer

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Deferred of a Dream. Since I was a little girl, I always imagine how I wanted my life to go. For instance, if I liked a Lil boy, I would imagine being with him and make up stories ( that I only I knew) about me and him. But not just with guys, but friends, new schools, new opportunities. Not being crazy, but just had a vivid imagination. ( or only child syndrome ) Anytime my life wasn't going as planned, I, in my mind, created and imagine a new life sometimes for better and sometimes not so better. Anywho, as I got older, I found myself still imagining a better life, in my mind and wondering when will it finally come true. Could it really happen? Do I really want it to happen? Hence, I started to think of making my fantasies my reality. Lately, the things I have imagined for myself were indeed happening, just not with me or for me. So I try time after time and so hard to stop forcing or imagining a different life other than the one that has already been created for me. But my drea

Yep I'm a Pisces

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I normally don't believe in horoscopes and I don't look to them to tell the future, but I do un derstand that they are like advice readings. And this advice feels right. The spiritual sign of the Fish prefers its disconnected dream world over the cold grips of reality. Much like one single Fish in a large school of swimmers, emotional Pisces understands that the masses are made up of many individuals. While your emphasis on intuition and imagination can create a beautifully open mind , removing yourself so far from the real world can also backfire -- for the subconscious offers little structure and one can easily lose direction. -Twittascope Romantic Renaissance Relationships roll into the foreground this month, and you feel more of a desire to express your feelings. July is a time to shed beliefs and goals that no longer apply, making you stronger and more able to climb higher later on. ;-) I believe it is too. Most Compatible signs: Cancer and Scorpio ....... which i kne